I’m in love with a girl…I never thought I would say that, but I am. She’s my daughter, Sofia Alixandra. She makes every day worth living. There’s so much I can say. Should I tell you about her beautiful eyes that smile at me when she grins? Or how she curls her upper lip when she laughs? Or maybe about the dimples so subtly imprinted on her chubby cheeks? Her beauty is beyond description. How could God give me such a lovely creature? Someone who, on this earth, is deemed defected, but in my eyes, perfection. I love her eyes. One so big & brown, the other slanted, looking blue. They are each divine to me. I love to watch her sleeping with her mouth open. Daddy says she looks just like me.
But can I stop to tell you about her strength? How she goes from therapy to therapy tackling the challenges set before her. How despite what the doctors said, she is achieving her milestones & proving everyone wrong.
She is resilient.
I want to be the best for her. Not just give her the best material things, but really be the best me. Leaving childish ways behind & realizing the best & biggest accomplishment is right before my eyes. There’s no place to go. I don’t need a promotion. She is it. She is the best of me, of us.
I sometimes wonder if I can love another as I love her. I sometimes wonder if I could give all of me…my strength, my body, my energy, my time, my life, as I have given to her.
All I know is that she’s been such a testimony to me. A beacon of hope, a ball of love, my motivation & inspiration. I can see how people can dangerously put their kids ahead of their spouses & even GOD Himself. But that won’t be me. I realize she’s only mine on earth to borrow. I am her manager, but God is the boss. I get so many revelations through her from Him. Like recently if I leave a room, she throws a tantrum, but as long as she’s in my presence, she’s fine. She can play all day by herself, but if I get up & walk away, everything goes downhill. Similarly, I think of the Lord in the spiritual. We are the babies & He is our Father. We live our lives, work, play etc. Sometimes we allow our very blessings to make us wander from God. Before we know it, we’re not in His presence anymore & our lives start falling apart. We may not notice, He’s always there, through our tantrums & through our joyous moments, but when we give Him the attention & recognize His presence, we are at peace again.
I had this urge to pour something out ,so I hope you were blessed.
God 1st~Matt 6:33
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